Post by MY HEART IS LA BOUND on Sept 4, 2006 18:50:59 GMT -5
your smile first attracted me,
So bright and funny and free.
It was like a turn of fate that brought you into my life.
I never expected God to bless me the way He has with you,
but I'll never stop Thanking Him for you.
I'm never loved anyone the way that I did you.
You taught me something important.
There's more to love than attraction and emotion.
It's commitment, trust, respect, care, sensitivity, forgiveness, and much more.
You taught me to believe in myself.
To believe that anything can happen if I only believe
You brought out the best in me. Often I wondered what I done before you!
You taught me that it's always best to be yourself and not change to impress someone
You taught me that loves precious and sacred. Don't take advantage of it!
Thru all of this the most important thing I learned from you is forgiveness and mercy.
I hate to say it but I never deserved you! You never derserved me. YOu deserve someone so much better than me. Someone that will always be faithful to you in every situation! Someone that will love you and only you! Someone taht will treasure you will every fiber of their being. If I ever get a chance to meet or talk with any girls taht you may talk to in the future I want to be able to go up to them without jealousy and say "you have the greatest guy God created. Don't ever take advantage of it and cherish every moment" It's to precious not to treasure.
It's precious not to cherish every sweet bitter memory. Like campmeeting seeing you speaking in tongues and loving God. watching you laugh at Kentucky Kingdom as we acted like total retards. Getting our faces smeared with cool whip at the Mexican resturant on our birthdays. Spending Thanksgiving laughing, talking, and loving one another. THen there was Indiana youth conference, searching for my chopsticks...lol..Of course you can't forget graduation and the tons of fun we had that weekend. I'll never forget blueberry chocolate covered blueberries. And everytime I see them I'll be reminded of you!
Then of course was Memorial day weekend. Letting you drive my car. I thought you were way to careful then I realized taht you thought that you had precious cargo with you! Then there's glow golf. Someone gotta take care of those golf balls...and then things I'll never forget is being held in your arms and feeling that nothign can ever happen to me because you are there to protect me. and feeling your love surrounding me is almost to hard to bear when I think about it! I'll never forgive myself for letting you go. Cause when I did I let my whole future go. I don't know what I'm goign to do anymore. I have no clue what is going to happen to me. I have no clue where I am goign to be. All I can be sure of is that God is goign to be with me.
I don't want to linger on the bitter sweet memories of you and I but I can't get them out of my mind. Ever little thing you do amazes me. The way you beg me to get off the phone then you are sweet and gentle when you say I love you!
I don't know how to end this when it has so much of my heart. I dont' know how to just stop this relationship when it is who I am. It's the reason why i've been goign on so long. It's partly the reason why i'm still in church. I would have gave up months ago if it weren't for you there encouraging me.
I want you to be happy more than anythign in the world and if you can't be happy with me. I hope you are happy with whoever GOd sends to you! I have dreaded this day. Wishing it would never come when I would say I love you and then say good bye! The day that I'd forever put behind me the love that I shared with who I believed to be my soul mate. I've been dreading this knowing that eventually it would happen because it seems no guy will ever love me forever.
So I will say I love you and let you go on with you life! I'll stop bothering you and I'll try to move on with mine. I hope you call from time to time just to say how are you? Hope life's treating you well. So as I close this with tears running down my cheeks and soaking my skirt. I love you Ian I'll see you around.
Take care of yourself. Don't get down. Always remember GOd loves you more than I ever could and He's there for you always. Don't let the girls hurt you! Don't stand for a bunch of crap. IF she isn't treating you right remember you deserve much more. Please whatever you do Don't forget to remember me. Mention me in your prayers. every now and then think about me when you see a parrot or a monkey. And when you watch Larry, curly, and Mo. And always remember I love you very much and I"m here to be your friend.
I love you Ian! Good bye my love! I'll see you the future and for now I'll leave you be.
Call me if you wish too. I'd love to hear your voice. To remind me of our used to be and the things I'm going to miss!
Written by Monica Damesworth
July 9, 2006 the day after Ian and I broke up!
So bright and funny and free.
It was like a turn of fate that brought you into my life.
I never expected God to bless me the way He has with you,
but I'll never stop Thanking Him for you.
I'm never loved anyone the way that I did you.
You taught me something important.
There's more to love than attraction and emotion.
It's commitment, trust, respect, care, sensitivity, forgiveness, and much more.
You taught me to believe in myself.
To believe that anything can happen if I only believe
You brought out the best in me. Often I wondered what I done before you!
You taught me that it's always best to be yourself and not change to impress someone
You taught me that loves precious and sacred. Don't take advantage of it!
Thru all of this the most important thing I learned from you is forgiveness and mercy.
I hate to say it but I never deserved you! You never derserved me. YOu deserve someone so much better than me. Someone that will always be faithful to you in every situation! Someone that will love you and only you! Someone taht will treasure you will every fiber of their being. If I ever get a chance to meet or talk with any girls taht you may talk to in the future I want to be able to go up to them without jealousy and say "you have the greatest guy God created. Don't ever take advantage of it and cherish every moment" It's to precious not to treasure.
It's precious not to cherish every sweet bitter memory. Like campmeeting seeing you speaking in tongues and loving God. watching you laugh at Kentucky Kingdom as we acted like total retards. Getting our faces smeared with cool whip at the Mexican resturant on our birthdays. Spending Thanksgiving laughing, talking, and loving one another. THen there was Indiana youth conference, searching for my chopsticks...lol..Of course you can't forget graduation and the tons of fun we had that weekend. I'll never forget blueberry chocolate covered blueberries. And everytime I see them I'll be reminded of you!
Then of course was Memorial day weekend. Letting you drive my car. I thought you were way to careful then I realized taht you thought that you had precious cargo with you! Then there's glow golf. Someone gotta take care of those golf balls...and then things I'll never forget is being held in your arms and feeling that nothign can ever happen to me because you are there to protect me. and feeling your love surrounding me is almost to hard to bear when I think about it! I'll never forgive myself for letting you go. Cause when I did I let my whole future go. I don't know what I'm goign to do anymore. I have no clue what is going to happen to me. I have no clue where I am goign to be. All I can be sure of is that God is goign to be with me.
I don't want to linger on the bitter sweet memories of you and I but I can't get them out of my mind. Ever little thing you do amazes me. The way you beg me to get off the phone then you are sweet and gentle when you say I love you!
I don't know how to end this when it has so much of my heart. I dont' know how to just stop this relationship when it is who I am. It's the reason why i've been goign on so long. It's partly the reason why i'm still in church. I would have gave up months ago if it weren't for you there encouraging me.
I want you to be happy more than anythign in the world and if you can't be happy with me. I hope you are happy with whoever GOd sends to you! I have dreaded this day. Wishing it would never come when I would say I love you and then say good bye! The day that I'd forever put behind me the love that I shared with who I believed to be my soul mate. I've been dreading this knowing that eventually it would happen because it seems no guy will ever love me forever.
So I will say I love you and let you go on with you life! I'll stop bothering you and I'll try to move on with mine. I hope you call from time to time just to say how are you? Hope life's treating you well. So as I close this with tears running down my cheeks and soaking my skirt. I love you Ian I'll see you around.
Take care of yourself. Don't get down. Always remember GOd loves you more than I ever could and He's there for you always. Don't let the girls hurt you! Don't stand for a bunch of crap. IF she isn't treating you right remember you deserve much more. Please whatever you do Don't forget to remember me. Mention me in your prayers. every now and then think about me when you see a parrot or a monkey. And when you watch Larry, curly, and Mo. And always remember I love you very much and I"m here to be your friend.
I love you Ian! Good bye my love! I'll see you the future and for now I'll leave you be.
Call me if you wish too. I'd love to hear your voice. To remind me of our used to be and the things I'm going to miss!
Written by Monica Damesworth
July 9, 2006 the day after Ian and I broke up!
